I chose 'Faith Dance' because it speaks of the creative, ongoing movement of life, of God’s leading and our responses to those leadings, of God’s grace and our surrender to that grace. I believe we’re basically spiritual beings whose wholeness requires a healthy interweaving of the psychological (mental and emotional), physical and spiritual. This integration is part of the dance and can’t be ignored.

As my journey unfolded, I began to realize how much my faith system had been formed by human thought. While God was at the center, much of what we say we believe about God and this life is human construction—it's the result of human thoughts and perceptions. I had so thoroughly immersed myself in Christianity that even raising questions about it threatened to tear the fabric of my life. But the journey continued until I slowly came to realize this faith system which had once meant everything to me, could no longer meet my spiritual needs.

It's painful to realize that much of what we build our lives on isn't necessarily the ultimate truth we thought it was. The challenge is to separate what is 'truth' from what is human thought, and God gets mixed up in all of that. It's easy to believe that God is also a product of human construction and therefore, not real.

One thing I learned over and over. It wasn't God who was changing; it was my perception of God that was undergoing transformation. I’ve learned if we have the courage to face the many ways we humans construct our own reality—including our faith—and then open our hands to receive something deeper and truer, we find the God who has been with us all along.

This is the story of such a time of transition for me, a parish pastor who came to the ministry in my mid-forties and who, in my late fifties, found that the Christian faith could no longer contain my experience of God. I tell you this story primarily through journal entries that span approximately ten years.

I developed this website to share my journey and to encourage you not to give up on God. In going deeper and deeper into our souls, there is only 'more' God, which is the greatest blessing we can be given in this life.